EMBARRASSED...

why do i feel this way ? why did i do what i did ? why do i see it as if its the end of the world?
i just want to stop feeling like this i feel so ashamed and empty like a piece a shit how come i am
how i am? im literally da biggest DOUCHE ! i wish i had magic powers and i could erase pieces of my life
either just from my mind or literally just erase them as if they never existed what is the point of negative things
like that happeninng to someone like is everything really ment to happen for a reason like was their a point
to all that happening 2 me? ah i  hate it i act like someone did it 2 me and i did it  2 myself
i am my biggest enemy im the reason i am how i am im my worst critic im the one who puts myself down
like why do i do that ? i must really hate myself or just be fucked up in the head i dont like this about myself
things need to change! i want to become a better person because if i cant accept myself than no one can accept me either
you have to love yourself in order to love someone im such an ugly ugly person inside and out i dont believe in myself
and i dont think i have what it takes i dont know how i started thinking this way and why ? why? man
here i go again judging myself and putting myself down maybe i need 2 talk to an expert man am i really that fucked up?
everyone around me is so happy and why arent i? something has got to change and that something is me!
i wish someone was here to understand me and guide me but im to embarrased to open up why? why am i such a shy bitch?
ugh i hate everything about myself i need to become a better person and stop judging everyone specially myself
what an ugly person i have become and no one sees it until i get drunk no one sees how truly ugly i am until ive hit
that point and im embarrased to show my face to everyone i just want to hide in a lil ball or in my room
and never come out again i cant even start a new life i wish we had like 3lives or something once we dont like how
things are just switch lives because this one sucks balls! its 3am and im so lonely ive been lonely all day
i cant hold back anyone from living their lives just because i dont want to live it its not their fault im so stupid
god D' get a hold of yourself you know what u did is wrong and ur beating urself up over it i need to get over it
stop being so sensitive face it like a woman not a lil girl ur just running away from your problems im so embarrased though
it possibly is the most embarrasing thing ive done its really a breaking point for me i want to give up those negative
things i want to give them all up ! i need 2 find some peace and i need to be happy with myself live life to my fullest
happy in his arms because he truly does make you happy theirs no lying in that !